Monday, August 29, 2005

\\*melancholy*//

.::Im not a girl, not yet a woman::.

I used to think I had the answers to everything
But now I know
That life doesn't always go my way
Feels like I'm caught in the middle
That's when I realize

I'm not a girl, not yet a woman
All I need is time, a moment that is mine
While I'm in between
I'm not a girl

There is no need to protect me
It's time that I
Learn to face up to this on my own
I've seen so much more than you know now
So don't tell me to shut my eyes

I'm not a girl, not yet a woman
All I need is time, a moment that is mine
While I'm in between
I'm not a girl

But if you look at me closely
You will see it in my eyes
This girl will always find her way

I'm not a girl, not yet a woman
All I need is time, a moment that is mine
While I'm in between
I'm not a girl

(I'm not a girl) I'm not a girl, don't tell me what to believe
(Not yet a woman) I'm just trying to find the woman in me, yeah
(All I need is time) Oh, all I need is time
(A moment that is mine) That's mine
While I'm in between
I'm not a girl, not yet a woman, no no
All I need is time, a moment that is mine
While I'm in between
I'm not a girl, ooh
Not yet a woman

.::Breakaway::.

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I'd pray
I could break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
Make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jetplane
Far away
And break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
Make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging with revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
Gotta keep movin on movin on
Fly away
Break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
Take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away
Breakaway
Break away

...smiles... sighs... sobs....

Posted By Khymzky||Alone @|3:59 AM|

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Thursday, August 25, 2005

\\*boiling*//

i made a list of things-to-do but i haven't accomplished anything on the list yet. im so so lazy! i guess i can never really take school seriously. hahahaha!

last tuesday, i submitted the script for our talk show "Talk Trio". im the director but since our scriptwriter is very irresponsible and damn stupid, i decide to make the script myself. Imagine, i asked her to submit a script for our topic, which is "employment", serious stuff right? and what she gave me is a crap! a script so barbaric and oh-so gay! our EP asked her to submit the script early so that we can deliberate on it. our's is a 30 minutes show and she submitted a two-page script containing crap! everyone in the group are really pissed off. we even planned on kicking her out of the group, but we're still so nice to let her stay coz if we'll kick her out, then she would have to do a one man production which will cost her a lot, and we pity her for that but she's really so hard to deal with! we try as hard as we could be nice to her. as in! i'll just enumerate why we don't like her;

> she's so irresponsible (program format, letters and script thingy)
> she always gives invalid excuses when she's late or absent.
> she's a delay during the photoshoot. everyone was already in front of the cam, ready to strike a pose, and she? argh! still doing her make-up. she had retouched for more than 5x already, and take note, 5x before the shoot started! she's made a big fus on her make up when she's not even the host. duh!!!
> when we were decorating/ doing the set design, i asked her to buy a pentel pen and manila paper for the idiot board since the hosts were't able to study their lines coz we still dont have script then because of her.. that was around 4:45pm i guess and the show will start at 6pm. it was already 5 to 6 and she hasn't come back so i texted where she is, and her reply was "wait lng, ngmemerienda lng me" i was so pissed off! but i have to contain my anger coz i dont want to ruin my day even if it already is. the whole group was like "ang kapal tlga! haggard na tayo lht dito, nakuha nya pa mgmerienda!!"
> we she came, i asked her nicely to finish the IB as fast as she could. and mengz! nagdabog pa!!! i was about to confront her but someone called me coz one of our guests has arrived. argh!
> during the shoot, everyone was "toxic", i was doing the shot lists and am directing at the same time, since i needed a PA, i asked kiki(our production manager) to assist me, our EP, paulo became the audioman that night, as in everyone was busy and multitasking, but then after the show, kiki told me that she saw her inside the dressing room, doing her make-up while all of us were like close to dying!!! haggard-looking as in not even a concealer or powder on our faces (except the hosts), haven't eaten dinner yet and she's in the dressing room doing her make up and talking to somebody on the fone!!!! gggrrrrr!
> even ate cha(owner of the resto) and ate joey (EP of a show in ABS) find her maldita. i dont want to go into details on what she did to these two supportive and generous people, but im telling you, it's something really bad that causes ate cha to tell me that she doesn't want to see her face on the resto again!
> there are still lots of things but im too lazy to type it. but what i posted here are just a few. the whole class doesn't like her actually. kiki said it's because i dont like her that's why the class hates her,ahahhah! influencial!?! ahahaha

by the way, last tuesday we had this lil' argument during the class. we were seated on the stage(studio) only 2 persons apart. she's protesting why I didn't put her name as the scriptwriter, paolo told her that why should I? in the first place I made the script (period). we were arguing for like 10minutes. I wanted to raise my voice but I cant coz we hav a class going on. we stopped for a while. then when she spoke to me again after like 10 minutes, she's more calm and nicer? ahahhah. this time she wasn't arguing anymore, she's asking me now what her designation would be, I said it’s for the group to deliberate.

when we halt from arguing, wacky dodo whispered that I bit her up! ahahaha she's like "fifi, suntukan na lng kayo later after class.. hihihihi talo mo yan kahit payat ka.. hihihi" unconsciously, her whisper is loud enough for her to hear.. ahahah.. I was just laughing at the idea! ahaha.. dodo can really be wacky even at times like that ahhahaa! my groupmates find it so "kapal" of her to even ask why she's no longer the scriptwriter. duh!

anyways, I'll just update you with more of what's happening to me. there are lots actually that I wanna share but this one's long enough to read and besides I don’t feel like typing anymore.. im really sleepy it's 3 in the morning, my class is at 1pm.. huhuhuhu...ciao!

Posted By Khymzky||Alone @|2:54 AM|

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Monday, August 15, 2005

\\*the weeks that passed*//

i haven't updated my blog for weeks now.. im super busy so im just gonna make this update really brief..

:+: my sked's really a mess... as in!

:+: i watched if only with kiki, i was kinda disappointed coz i expected more from the movie.. it didn't end up to be the tearjerker movie i expected it to be. but i like it though...

:+: i've been pigging out a lot lately.. i just hope i'd gain extra pounds.

:+: we had our pictorial for the production. it took us 3 hours just posing for the cam. i'll post the pics soon...

:+: i went to the senate and was able to interview Ms. Lynda Jumilia. she's really nice.. it's her cousin who introduced her to me/us. she even gave me her calling card so i can juz text/call her if i'd want to interview her again.

:+: i never thought directing would be that hard... we had our actual shoot last saturday and mengz! it's like directing a real show.. well... it is a real show except that it wouldn't be shown nationwide. all our guests were professionals. we finished taping at 2am. i even forgot to eat dinner coz i was busy dealing with everything and everyone.

:+: we still have a lot to do.. interviews and all...

:+: i have to work on my undergraduate research... triple time this time!

:+: we'll have our midterm exams in two weeks time.. gosh! so hectic my sked!!

:+: my hard work paid off.. i made it to the dean's list. ahahahha.. i have no plans of submitting my grades actually but my adviser forced me to do so.. and i have no choice.. but honestly, i never dreamed of being on the dean's list.. promise!!!

:+: what else? hmmm.. we'll shoot our OBB tomorrow..

with my busy sked, im glad i still get to keep in touch with my pals.. may not be all but most of them... guys! i miss ya'll! bare with my sked pls.. muahz!

Posted By Khymzky||Alone @|9:45 PM|

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Sunday, July 31, 2005

\\*fun day*//

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not having seen my pals for a long time makes this day really fun. though i've been and really am busy lately, im glad i still found sometime to hang out with my fab friends.

after my ethics class, me and my group at tv prod had our ocular visit to California Grillin. it's this resto at del monte, quezon city that's usually being credited at ABS-CBN's "perfect moment". fortunately, my groupmate paolo, owns the place so we never had difficulty getting the venue and alloting the budget since we got it for free! aheheheh.. so lucky.. i got to try some of the foods. i like their mango crepe.. so delicious!!! you can even compare it with that of UCC. i almost forgot how i love breton's crepe. im telling you it's really mouth watering!!

i had to leave the resto at 2pm coz i still havta meet up with my fab friends at makati. i met up with kharen and rizza first, we had our haircut at bench fix and as usual i had mine styled.after that, we went to this event at greenbelt1, we were so late that when we arrived, there we only a few people on the event. luckily, we were still able to snag some freebies and buy something on the bazaar. we didn't stay long since there's nothing more to do. we juz waited for our friends jacatel and denise. while waiting for them, we decided to find a resto where we could have dinner, we settled at haiku. after that we went to CBTL and something really embarassing happend.. ahhahaha.. i dont want to go into details.. gosh! so embarassing, denise and kristel!! waheheheh!! our next stop was SBC, we settled there to rest and to shop as well. jacatel brought their cute products. i bought 3 new drop earrings from them. too bad no white feather earrigs was left for me so i juz have to ask them to reserve one for me.. and oh before i forgot.. rirai bag all the good stuff since she's the first one to look at their products.. rirai!! i ask kris to buy me an id holder when they go back to china. we also talked about sad sonata.. i was so kilig!!. we were still at SBC when i noticed that it's not juz me, kharen and jacatel.. , belinda, stef and their guy pals arrived and joined us.. ahahhaha.. we dunno where to go after SBC. it was already 12am when we decided to go to red box. kris and i sung this one song from sad sonata.. uhmmmm... "yesterday once more".. ahahahah.. what we really wanna sing is L-O-V-E but they dont have the version we like. i was dead tired then.. denise brought me home at 2:30am and when we got home, kris texted me that we forgot to pay our bills! ahahah.. bad bad! but i swear, i really forgot!!

it was nice seeing my fab friends again. i juz hope i wouldn't be so busy so we can hang out more often.. we're planning to have our nails done.. pamper day!!! muahz! i had a great day with you guys! muahz!

Posted By Khymzky||Alone @|11:36 AM|

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Wednesday, July 20, 2005

\\*bumblebee*//

im as busy as a bumblebee. school is really giving me a hectic schedule. i hardly have time to go out and pamper myself. i slept for only two hours last night! gosh! can you imagine how huge my eyebags are!?! im preoccupied with school works and other school stuff. argh! i so wanna watch movie... herbie fully loaded, if only(desperately!!), and sisterhood of the travelling pants(so wanna!) to name a few on my list. argh! argh! i haven't read a new book since summer. haven't gone out with friends yet, but soon i promise i will... we plan on going out on the 30th. that's the only day when i can really go out, that's my only free time. on the afternoon i'll be going out with kharen, chriz and her friend, hopefully bea could make it. jacatel, and rizza will follow for dinner. then after dinner, my college pals and i might gimmick on makati, eastwood or timog. were not sure where yet. but if it's makati then we'll probably just chillax. it dismays me just thinking of my sched.argh! argh! lemme post my sched here:

july 23-written preliminary exam on media ethics (not scantron type!! waaaahh)
july 24-submission of revised written version of the chapter 1 of my undergraduate research. complete the right format (double spaced, super justified!!, cursived and all that special format demanded by our professor)
july 25-written preliminary exam on WOS1. (on-the-spot written exam of chapter 1. we'll make the chapter1 of a thesis, topic will be given on-the-spot. basically everything will be done that time. i have no idea how i can prepare for this!! argh! ggrrrr!!!)
july 28-prelims on tv prod and direction (scantron type so easy for me)
july 30-hangout with friends (after class).
august 5/6/7- ocular visits to our talk show location.
august 10-shopping for all the materials to be used in the talk show. (decorations, backdrop, props, tokens, tapes.. everything!!) you'll probably have an idea how much we'll be spending for this production. lotsa moolah darling!
august 13-general rehearsal(including the decoration of the place/studio, pre-production)
august 14-shooting day!!!
august 20/21- shooting or taping of opening billboard (OBB) and closing billboard (CBB).
august 24- possible date for re-shooting (if there will be problems.. hopefully none coz that means another extra budget! hahahah)
august 27-blah-rough cut and editing. i dunno how long it will take to actually edit a 30 minuter show. a 12 minuter takes 3days-1 week, so probably a week or two for a 30minuter.(this requires lotta work and sleepless nights!!) EYEBAG part of the production. hihihi

my sched for september is still indefinite. i just wish it wouldn't be as loaded as my august.

awkie, enough of my sched. yesterday, i stayed at school 'till around 6pm. i was with kiki, donna went home coz she had to go to the salon. we were so hungry and im craving for wendy's cheesy bacon mushroom melt (yum!yum!). after my meeting with Dr. Cuevas, since i was craving for mushroom melt, kiki and i went to wendy's to feed our grumbling tummies. it's funny how hungry we were. waheheheheh! we ordered two meals... each... wahehehhe she had chicken with rice and fries meal and a hamburger and fries meal. i also had the chicken with rice and fries meal and the cheesy bacon mushroom melt meal!! we had our burger meals for take-out but we end up eating 'em too coz we cant resist for we're really horsingly(horsingly???) hungry! imagine, we ate two meals in one sitting! aehehheheh! when we left our table, we glanced back and realized how manly we ate. hihihi. kiki, we ate like a horse!! waheheheh!

Posted By Khymzky||Alone @|8:49 AM|

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Wednesday, July 13, 2005

\\*In 3s*//

I found this on bianca's blog and felt like answering it. actually i didn't copy this from her blog coz she disabled right clicking.. aheheheh! but anywayz, here it is..

In 3s
Three names you go by:
1. Kim/kimi
2. Fifi
3.iska

Three screen names you have had:
1. khymzky
2. candygurl_muahz
3. fifi

Three physical things you like about yourself:
1. Hands
2. nose
3. tummy/waistline

Three physical things you don't like about yourself:
1. Feet
2. eyebags/dark circles
3. hair (so nipis!)

Three parts of your heritage:
1. filipino
2. spanish
3. japanese accdg to the elders.. hihihi

Three things that scare you: 1.death of my loved ones 2.losing everything at once3. faling myself
Three of your everyday essentials:
1. prayers
2. allowance
3. food

Three of your favorite musical artists:
1. MYMP
2. Alicia Keys (she makes great music!)
3. Boa

Three of your favorite songs:
1. if i aint got you
2. karma
3. butterfly

Three things you want in a relationship:
1. unconditional love
2. Trust/respect
3. growth

Three lies and truths in no particular order:
LIES:
1. you know me really well... (u have no idea! not a bit.. im telling you!)
2. you can never have true friends on the net.
3. 'Queer people' are bad/evil!

TRUTH:
1. God is always good
2. There is always something good/positive about everything and everyone.
3. everything is possible!

Three physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you:
1. Handsome face
2. The way he dresses or carries himself (should be clean and he should be comfortable in whatever he's in)
3. Nice smile

Three of your favorite hobbies:
1. surfing the net
2. hanging out with pals
3. chillaxin!

Three things you want to do really badly now:
1. do my reaction paper on ethics even if my reaction would be really unethical!
2. move out of the haus and live on my own!
3. spend sometime with my friends.. huhuhu

Three careers you're considering/you've considered:
1. media related jobs
2. fashion guru
3. biz woman.. wer thinking of putting up a biz actually

Three places you want to go on vacation:
1. maldives
2. any aman resort
3. paris

Three kid's names you like:
1. bianca
2. alastair (my cuz's name)
3. fiaza

Three things you want to do before you die:
1. have my living funeral like the one morrie had..
2. realize all my dreams
3. Go to as many countries as I can (or go on a tour around the world)

Three ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
1. im dominant/ bossy
2. i can carry heavy loads..wahehehhe! proven sa cheering!
3. I eat a looot!

Three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
1. Uber-emotional
2. Sensitive
3. I love pink!

Three celeb crushes:
1. tom cruise
2. bradd pitt
3. matt of lizzie mcguire! ahehehe cute!

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My turn to tag...
Three people that I would like to see take this quiz:
1. kharen
2. cathy
3. kristel
4. ate jacq

im sorry if i haven't updated my blog yet.. im so lazy to do that and im still gathering my thoughts.. dunno where to start blogging.. hihihi soon this page will be updated pwamis! muahz!

Posted By Khymzky||Alone @|5:19 PM|

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Sunday, July 03, 2005

\\*lazy meeh*//

i practically spent the whole day sleeping. my eyes feel so heavy, i dunno why.. i have nothing to do today but relax. we didnt have any assignments that will require lots of work, making me so slothful, slotty in my own vocabulary... i have transfered my notes and finished reading a book last night, nothing's left to do today. so i thought of making my backdrop for my defense. since im still kinda slotty, i ask my bro' to do it for me.. hihihi.. and he's so kind to do it... hahaha!! he did almost 85% of my backdrop, thanks kuya!!! you did a nice job! lurve the backdrop! really creative! hihihi

i really have nothing to blog about honestly... i know im not making any sense so byers!

Posted By Khymzky||Alone @|7:47 PM|

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